I’ve been making music for over ten years now and I am aware of my problem. I have lost many dear friends because of my habit and caused permanent damage to my health and of those close to me.

I’ve been trying to turn my life around and become a normal human being but it seems very difficult and .. after all this time. I don’t even know if I can come back. Making music has become so big part of me that I feel like I would be worthless without it… I’ve tried different programs and therapy, but nothing seems to work in long term. I always have a relapse and find myself writing songs again.

For me.. there is no hope. I’m in too deep. But for those of you who are just experimenting with music – get out while you still can! This life will destroy you.

-Evestus-